today at school i had sex with my friend but i dont think he use a condom how do i know if im pregnate? he didnt pull out in time... :/ also a really cute boy from my english class asked me out yesterday i've had a crush on him for as long as i remember! would i be a slut if i gave him head on the first date? lol the last thing i need rite now is more rumers being spread about me...




also my dad ran over my favorite evanesence cd wiht the lawn mower :( but i didnt cut myself today yay! even though my mom wants me to keep my grades up. what a fucking bitch plus she wont let me get my nose pierced (even though my freind who works at claires said she could do it for free) and my brother told her about the pictures i put up on my myspace of me in a bikini. its not like i was even showing amything! :/ wtf! umm also this girl i thought was my friends didnt invite me to her sweet 16 party just because she doesnt like that i do drugs now and kiss girls. um honey just fucking DEAL WITH IT... i wish people wouldn't judge me just because i'm different,..

ok well whatever so i'm going to try to go the rest of the week with out cutting its gonna be hard with all the stress in my life lately... like the stuff i mentioned here plus the fact that i swear i gained like 5 pounds this month and i feel like people are always thinking about how fat i got. today i had like 10 cookies during lunch so tonight i'll skip dinner i guess... tomorrow's a new day.

anyways </a>
if i can do it ill treat myself to that tokio hotel shirt i want at hot topic:

http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302028391&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442181654&bmUID=1225404093168